I’ve been in deep reflection mode since the beginning of the year.
The winter (weather) was a harsh one. It put me in a state of semi-hibernation which prevented me from engaging in any non essential activity.
My physical health is a cause for concern again. The mammogram taken earlier this year showed growing microcalcifications in the breast. A biopsy was performed; the results of my biopsy are due on Thursday.
Going on vacation in St Marteen in mid March was the launching pad for a fresh start .
I’m at a turning point again, in my life. I need to realign myself. I need to simplify my life. An emotional spring clean up is needed.
Over the years our body, mind and spirit becomes cluttered just like our closets.
Lately, I’ve been wanting to change my dress style. I want my clothes to fit my body, not have my body fit the garment. A woman’s mature body is harder to dress than that of a firm young woman’s body. I’m in the process of cleaning my closet and discarding any item that does not meet my new requirement.
Spiritually, I am working on decluttering old emotions, hurts and self image with some breathing and meditation.
When I’m not in tune with my true self, my body talks to me. It comes in the form of physical ailments and diseases. The more I deny my true self, the worse the ailments become. I must learn to truly love, respect and accept myself. I must heed my intuition and affirm myself and not fear rejection. I must learn forgiveness at a deeper level.
My mind is always in thought mode. Even my sleep is not restorative, experiencing vivid dreams with strong emotions.
Transitional phases of any kind are never easy because they bring the unknown to your doorstep. You must learn new ways and confront your fears. They test your strengths and weaknesses. It is in the transitional phase that you have the opportunity to grow and discover new facets of yourself.